The Poems of Nicola Corry

Nicola wrote a number of poems during her short life, one of Nicola's ancestors, Ebenezer Elliott, was a famous Sheffield poet so perhaps it was in her genes!. Here are some of her poems:

Facing chemo again

I lie awake tossing and turning
As the pain inside grows deeper in me I can feel it burning,

The memories that were fading come rushing back to my mind
I feel the crazy mess swirling around no one could be this unkind,

I lie there thinking of places I could run and hide
But I’m never going to escape this I just have to ride on the tide,

I hope one day they will tell me a mistake has been made
And this journey on this bumpy track will begin to fade,

Dreams are all that I have left and memories of the past
I hold on wishing I could go back but I know it wouldn’t last,

I have to face this whatever but the burning anger why me
Wondering if it will ever leave and let us be,

The scars are deep and no one hears my cries
The loneliness creeping over me hearing peoples hopeful lies,

People offering help trying to do their best
But it never seems to replace what’s missing I want to be like the rest,

I want to live in ignorance, ignorance is bliss
Not knowing what’s around the corner is like the fondest kiss,

My body trembles and feels weak, as cancer threatens to take my soul
I must find the strength from within but keep falling back in this dark hole,

The treatment is just arriving my courage has lost its place
I look around searching for my childs face,

I look into his eyes and see the strength that fuels me
And that is why I stand with armour all around me
My sentence will end and I will be set free.

By Nicola Corry

My Dad

I’m writing this to show appreciation and to thank you for all the things you have done for me,
You been there for me right from the start you cared and helped me which is plain easy to see.

We had some problems maybe more than enough,
But you’re always there to support me and to be tough.

I wanted to buy you something nice for fathers day,
But money could not afford to thank you for what you do everyday.

Even though now it’s just you and I,
You still carry on to be strong as the days pass us by.

No one could have done all the things you have done for me,
You’re the best dad in the world which I’m sure everyone can see, especially me!!

Love Nicola

Change
(Dedicated to my Mum)

You settled down with a man that you were happy with at first,
But he sometimes made you feel like you were going to burst.

You felt he was the only one for you and maybe Mr Right,
But you soon realised all of you both could do was fuss and fight,

Which went on for years and years and for all brought pain and tears,
I know I was no angel through our fair share of strife.

There must have been times where we all felt alone,
And no one to care for us and never wanting to come home,

But that’s when you found someone to heal the pain that went on for years,
And who could stop the pain and tears.

I’m glad you found that someone to make you smile,
Even if it wasn’t the one at the end of the aisle,

But that is my Dad and I will never stop loving you or him
From limb to limb.

Things have changed in every way,
But I hope in our lives there is something positive in every day.

Even though I am here and you are there,
I will never stop to care.

Some people probably think that you are in the wrong,
But in my eyes I know you couldn’t have lived like that all along.

Well now lets hope that everything works out for the best,
And try not to listen to some of the small minded REST.

Love Nicola

Feelings

The days are growing colder,
As I’m getting older,

The memories are fading away,
At the back of my mind you lay,

My new life has taken place,
But I can still remember your face,

New places I go, new people I pass by,
And no sound of pain, or a heart breaking cry,

Laughing and smiling faces,
I love these new places.

By Nicola Corry
23/03/99